Why Did I Deny

Thoughts came across from morning till late night
Weirdness followed by willingness reached the height
While befriending the old couch, I gaped
Thinking that things could have changed.
How come I was brushed by a bubbled lie?
And I'm still wondering, why did I deny...

Neither have I become abate
Nor will I ever abdicate
But this bewilderment about my decision has still not gone
And, in the wake of a silent scream, I found myself lost in oblivion
Jactating with the hopeless dream, I was left high and dry
Wondering all over again, why did I deny...

Standing on the watch in the light
I fear of finding myself pass as a watch in the night
Climbing high up in the melancholy hill
Half of my heart says to stay beyond the veil
But the other half of my heart says why!
Making me wonder again about why did I deny…

Never had I realised that a girl on the tick like me could be late
Making myself wait with a wishful thinking that fate will change.
Lots of things unsaid, undone that they do matter,
But now, when time has already passed by, I can't afford to say better late than never
Here I am standing feeble somewhere along the way
Abstruse it is, to let myself know why did I deny...